My Journey

My Dear Friends,

You who have been with me, who have witnessed my journey, as I have travelled far, through both inner and outer terrain, know I have been on a Quest. I have been searching, even when I have not known what I am searching for. I have plummeted to the depths of my being and therein found humility, trust and deep abiding love.

I offer that love to you, a sacred offering from these hands which have touched so many pilgrims, from this heart which continues to flow over with gratitude for all the gifts you bestow upon me simply by your being. Being with me on this journey.

This journey, with all its long, dusty roads, its peaks and valleys, its sorrows and joys, its multitude of laughter as I have learned to take myself less seriously, has led me to now. And though it truly begins longer ago than time and not so long ago at all, I offer this synopsis, hoping once again, that at least it is good entertainment.



Eugene, Oregon, early 21st Century

“Will you be a Frequency Keeper?” The words were not loud as they sounded in my inner ear, though compelling nonetheless.

What is a Frequency Keeper? I thought, as I walked along in the early morning, a light mist falling around me, the air fresh and clean. It sounds, perhaps, like someone who holds a certain vibration for the Earth during these times of acceleration and change. I could do that, I thought. My intention is to be in service after all.

My first directive from the Frequency Keepers was to wear no tight fitting clothing around my pelvic region as I would be receiving energy directly from the Earth and needed to maintain an open flow.

Over the next few months I developed, with the help of my dear friend and fanciful cohort, Lauren Rose, a type of energy work we called Divine Blueprint Activation. We assisted people in aligning their physical, emotional, mental and spiritual energy bodies to the tone of their Original Source Intention.

During these sessions I felt heat and light and a soothing power move through me. At times I experienced my nervous system being energetically rewired.

After the sessions, especially after working with many people in one day, I felt shaky and even discombobulated. (Spell check actually accepted that word!) The more people I worked with the easier the flow became as I expanded and strengthened my self to hold more energetic force.

Ah, Frequency Keeping, no doubt.

June 2005

I was in Oxford, England, on my way to walk the Camino Santiago pilgrimage in northern Spain. In Oxford, after visiting Caitlin and John Matthews, two of my favourite authors and Celtic scholars, I stayed at a Bed and Breakfast, run by a lovely Irish lass. It was there I had a dream which shaped the course of my life.

Many of you have heard me refer to this Dream, I offer it here just as I wrote it after awakening at 2:30 in the morning.

In my Dream

I was walking on the Camino, about a week from the end, with a man who said he wanted me to meet his mother who lived in Southern France.. I said I wouldn’t go to France just then because I had to finish the Camino. So he left and went to get his mother and bring her to me on the Camino. When I saw her, in my dream, I was struck by her age. She appeared ancient.

She led me to an old building, a pension, and up some stairs into a room where I lay down on the bed and she placed her hands over my body. I felt immense pleasure coursing through my entire being. My body felt warm and somehow electrified. I saw colour flow into my nervous system and geometrical forms wind into my DNA.

I awoke hearing words in my mind, I grabbed the notebook and pen I had on the bedside table and wrote them down…

“I am the Magdalen. I am known as Mary, Isis, Inanna, Venus, Aphrodite…
I am the depth of love in joyous celebration.
I am she who is rich in pleasure and ripe in fecundity.
I am the essence of female pleasure and this creativity is my joy.

I am the Magdalen Christ, she who holds the Christ Principle in my Heart of Hearts.

I am the Mysterious One – you may know me only in knowing your own heart.
In the depth of love we are one.

I am the Magdalen and the nectar of my being is the sweetest of flowers, the most glorious sunrise, the Choir of Angels. I am the essence of the Goddess.

The feminine principle is given expression through the Mother which is nurturance and the Goddess, which is pleasure.

The pleasure of the Goddess is so great that, in the beginning of this world, the masculine ego could not fully individuate when brought into its embrace.

In order for Evolution to allow complete expression of the masculine principle, the Goddess energy, which is sublime Pleasure, has been held deep within the unconscious waters of the Red Sea, the Great Womb where it was placed in service and with deep grief by my sister Lilith.

The healing of Lilith is now upon us and we do this by infusing our grief and pain with the essence of the Goddess, which is delight. In this way do we bring about balance and acceptance which is the truth of healing.

The Masculine has now been allowed full self expression and nurturance by the Mother, which is Unconditional Love. An imbalance has occurred because men (and women) have been taught that the feminine is a source of nurturance for their own pleasure rather than an ecstatic source of Divine Joy and direct connection to spiritual awareness and self development.

There is a hunger and angst in modern sexuality for orgasms leave people but momentarily fulfilled, with a sense of unsatisfied longing which then fuels anxious searching for the next orgasm or other experience which can reach into the depths and fulfil the longing for true spiritual sustenance. Modern people have long been taught that pleasure is sinful and they should not trust their bodies as divine vessels. This leaves a deep spiritual void.

I, the Magdalen, hold the Codes of the Goddess Lineage though for the last 2000 years I have been called The Great Whore. If I am a whore, it is to the Spirit within me. It is to God that I give myself, in joyous surrender, with whomever I make love.

Codes of Light are now awakening after deep slumber, and all shall be made clear in the radiance of true understanding. The shadows shall be brought to light and the truth shall be told.

I am the Magdalen Christ.
I am alive and well and ready to bestow my blessing upon those who have the eyes to see my Beauty and the ears to hear my Song of Joy.

When you make love, be it with yourself, your lifetime beloved or the Sacred Stranger, do so in my name. Invoke the Christ light into your heart and pour forth joy upon the Earth.

The Magdalen and the Yeshua Christ have reunited and now give birth to the New Jerusalem. The seeds of this conception are Divine Love and are nurtured in the Heart of Joy.

Do thou what doth bring thee joy and bask in our love for thee.

It is time to reconcile the irreconcilable, bring light to the shadows and darkness to light. We have all created the world as we know it. Love it, as a mother loves her child, an artist her work of art, the singer her song. This world we have created, let us rejoice in our creativity and love it into wholeness.

Where there is pain or grief let us ever so gently pour love into it, infusing pleasure, and in this way come to joyful balance.

To apply this in everyday life, look within to find the spark of Divine Light, which is the essence of Evolutionary Love and Joy. Nurture this spark in all things by listening to its voice, heeding its call, knowing it is the source of Life by whatever name and in which ever tradition it is known.

Hone your intuition and follow the promptings which lead to Service, Joy, Integrity and Love.

Align daily, through your own practice or in this way…say and feel, hear and see the following, knowing it is so.

“I align my hearts flame to the Source of my Being, my Original Source Intention – flooding my entire body, including nervous system, DNA, cells, atoms and subatomic particles, with the frequency of my Christ Self.

(You may specifically send this energy to any areas of physical, emotional, mental or spiritual distress)

“I align my body to the Christ frequency on Earth and in all dimensions. I pour forth the energy of Source through my being into the Earth in support of Evolution and for the benefit of all Beings.

“I allow the energy of my Whole Self to move through me, awakening, replenishing, transfiguring and aligning my internal axis and the axis of Earth to the frequency and Sacred Geometry of the Christ Evolutionary Intention.

“I allow the sound currents of Harmony to move through me, giving voice to the essence of my True Self.

“I allow the wave of the Goddess to move through me, bringing pleasure and deep abiding peace.

“I allow this wave to expand me as I bask in the Glory of the Living Christ who is my birthright and who I AM.’’

After writing this down, I felt the energy of the man from my dream come into my room at the B&B and make love with me. I was suspended in the moment just before orgasm for hours. This is a highly pleasurable state and also frustrating. I felt myself bound in the most exquisite, excruciating, prolonged almost-orgasm.. My breath expanded, I felt highly sensitised, as if feathers or rose petals were being stroked, slowly over all my body. I felt drawn into myself, taken out of myself, infused with desire, filled with fire, riding a never ending wave of desire.

During this time I heard the words “Tiera, we want to determine how much pleasure you can withstand”

Well yes, I thought, let’s find out!

Four hours later, having felt my sexuality building and building with out release, I finally took my self over the edge of orgasm, releasing the tension, letting the energy abate. I felt staggered, amazed, stunned.

I guess 4 hours was all the pleasure I could withstand. So far.

I got up, took a shower and went downstairs for my good Irish breakfast.

I then went for a walk in Oxford town. At one point, looking up at the numerous huge University buildings, I saw atop one of them the words: Magdalene College. This is of course simply the name of one of the colleges in Oxford University. For me it was a powerful metaphor. I knew I was now in Magdalene School; my curriculum Pleasure and Sacred Sexuality. And I also knew that my teachers have a sense of humour!

A couple of days later I was in Canterbury in south eastern England. I stayed a couple of days at the Youth Hostel there and on the second day I went walking along the South Downs Trail. It was so lovely, the multi layered shades of green, the rich, dark earth, the trees creating a canopy above my head, soft ground under my feet. I felt incredibly happy to be alive and free, to be on an adventure and soon to go to Spain to walk the Camino.

About a half hour into my walk I felt the man from my dream and the energy of Christ come into my awareness and my sexual energy ignited once again. As I felt the intense pleasure coursing through me, I heard the words “We are activating the Christ Ascension Codes within you now.”

My hands, my feet, my belly and my heart became hot. For the next 6 hours I walked through the woods and lanes of Southern England in a state of almost-orgasm. I walked, I felt, I stumbled…

(I wonder what the gentlemen golfers thought seeing me stumble past.)

On my return to the Youth Hostel, I noticed the chap who had checked me in the day before. He was quite cute. In my mind I heard the words: “Initiate him into the Magdalen Mysteries”

Oh.

Did this mean I was to have sex with him? That seemed to be what the Magdalen Mysteries were about for me. I certainly couldn’t do that. Could I? Well, maybe I could after the experiences of the past 3 days! (Little did I know how I would feel after experiencing this energy for 3 months, for a year, for 3 years…)

Well, I couldn’t just go up and inquire whether he fancied a shag or a bit of ecstasy with me (I have never been very assertive sexually) so I asked him if he would like to go for a walk.

We walked into the centre of town and had a Guinness. I do like the Guinness. As we sat in the square, the lovely and imposing Canterbury Cathedral before us, I told him this story, editing the more obvious sexual bits. I then shared with him that I had been asked to initiate him into the Magdalen Mysteries. He turned and looked at me sideways, saying “you’ve got my attention”.

He really was quite cute.

As it happens, with his work schedule at the Hostel, he would not have any time off for 3 days and I was leaving England in 3 days to go to Spain to begin my pilgrimage. I was planning on finding a B&B near Stansted Airport the night before I left and invited him to come up and spend the day with me in the little town of Bishop Stortford. He gave me his email and phone number.

By the time I arrived and checked in to my room I really just wanted to be alone. I had said I would get in touch with him however, and thought I had been given a charge by the Magdalen College, so I walked into town to find a pay phone and phoned, only to realise I had the wrong number! I wrote him an email and left it at that.

I concluded I had failed in my first assignment.

I spent the next month walking across Spain, experiencing more joy than I ever thought possible. I was turned on all the time. Really turned on, as if I had been making out for hours and was ready to melt into love at every moment.

A group formed around me on this epic journey which touched and transformed us all. Two weeks after I had left Canterbury I received an email from the man at the Hostel. He said his meeting with me had changed his life. He said he realised he was not happy where he was. He had since moved to Germany and was designing jewellery, his dream. He said he was very happy.

Clearly I had not failed after all. Equally clearly, the purpose of my experiencing so much sexual energy was not for me to have sex. I learned to hold a very fine balance within my system where I allowed myself to feel sexual and turned on without giving an outward expression of this. Through out the entire 900 km of the Camino (and most of the past 3 years) I had sex with no one. I channel the passion through my hands, rubbing people’s shoulders or feet or through my words, offering encouragement, insight and appreciation. I began to see that what is, for me, an expanded sense of sexual pleasure and ecstasy, for those around me, is a resonance which invites positive change.

And so I walked across Spain, filled with joy and radiating pleasure, alternating a sense of divine connection with periods of confusion and frustration.

And I just kept on walking. Every day. 35 kilometres on average (20 miles) per day.

The great beauty and power of the Camino, is that all I have to do to experience absolute purpose and meaning, is to walk. One of life’s greatest pleasures for me is walking in the sun.

Throughout the next 2 years (and 2 more Camino journeys) I have expanded my ability to experience pleasure and joy and to channel this energy through my hands, my smile, my words. I have learned not to take it personally when I am intensely attracted to someone I have just met; rather to be open to the flow of energy that I have to offer.

I have also been humbled, brought to my knees at the altar of my deepest fears and learned to surrender, to trust and to maintain faith.

And I have been searching.

Searching for a form through which I can make an even greater contribution. A form which aligns the Teachings of the Magdalen - Pleasure and Joy as evolutionary vehicles for transformation – with a structure for healing and self awareness on a grand scale. I want to impact a large number of people, offering a way to connect with their hearts desire and feel good in their bodies.

October 2007

On my third pilgrimage across Spain, I broke my toe and had to abort my Camino. I was unutterably sad, I felt lost, discouraged & disconnected. I visited friends in Ireland, London, Amsterdam, Belgium and Greece, trying to reconnect with my sense of purpose. I loved the places and people and especially the Architecture which deeply feeds my soul, yet still I felt bereft.

I finally went back to Spain, to Marbella, on the Costa del Sol. My toe was not healing quickly because I kept walking wherever I went. After all, walking is my mode of transportation and how I connect with the land.

Through a series of synchronicities I presented my work at a Body, Mind, Spirit Faire in Puerto Banus. I offered Astrological consultations, and Insight Healings (another modality I created which is best understood as a combination of healing touch and psychic reading.) The man with the table across from me had some sort of scientific device that people were sitting on and after a few minutes, they got up smiling and looking relaxed.

I went over to speak with him. He said he was a physician who had become frustrated in his medical practice, because, (in his words,) doctors don’t heal, they only manage conditions. He said his machine, the Bemer 3000, offered low level, broad range electromagnetic frequencies that the body could use to heal itself.

Ah, frequencies again.

He said I was welcome to try it throughout the weekend. I did so, 4 times.

On Monday morning I got out of bed and began to tape my toe as I had been doing for the past couple of months. I stopped because it felt entirely different. It was no longer broken! I thought it was a miracle.

I now see that the miracle was even bigger than I had at first supposed.

When the body is nourished at a basic biological level, it is able to heal itself.

Is this not the message of the Magdalen, as I received it 3 years ago? Has this entire journey been leading me to the Bemer? Has all the sexual energy simply been the pure energy of Spirit, offering me a way to increase my ability to receive, hold and channel vast amounts of power? Is it now time to utilise this power to usher in a new business paradigm of Love, Service and Abundance for all?

These are the questions that I move forward with into the next phase of my journey.

At a recent conference, the President of the Bemer company stood up to address us with his marketing spiel. He is a German man who has been in sales and marketing for 40 years. He message was that we were never to pressure or manipulate any one to buy the Bemer. We are to offer this product in service and with love.

Frequency Keeper indeed.

So I have found my work. I love and respect the product, the company and the people involved. I can bring my mind, my heart and my skill base to this work and make a contribution to people and to the evolution of consciousness.

What about sex? This story did begin with sex after all. And sex is in all great stories.

I can say at this point that I am guided by a source that is great and wise and vastly loving. I have been protected from my own impulses again and again.

I am now shifting my awareness to realising that my sexual energy is a potent life force, not only for healing energy but to actually create a shift in consciousness in myself and for the benefit of all beings.

And I am ready. I am ready to prosper and to assist others in prospering as well. I invite you to join me in creating health and wealth within the context of Service, Love and Abundance for all. I continue to walk upon the Earth as a conduit of Love and Grace.

Call me. Email me. Dance with me.

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